Tide

Once again the same tide
The same wave, the same fright
Wings chopped, dreams lost
Who won the war I fought?

Have I been tempted back into the cage?
I am shocked, taken aback and dazed
This time it caught me unaware,
He left me no option but to stare.

A little birdie again flew past me
I caught the wings, but hard was the wind
It was difficult to steer my way
I'll try again is what my heart says..

MEMORIES..!

Are memories connected to the mind or to the heart? Yeah I know you would say that this question can be answered by even a class 5 student, everyone knows that memories are formed in the mind and stay there forever in the conscious or the sub-conscious. But I beg to differ. Memories are the inseparable elements of our heart. Why do you feel a wave of ecstasy in your heart when you reminisce your first prize, first cycle, first kiss, first mobile, first salary etc? And why do you feel a sting in your heart when you bethink your break-up with your lover, the death of a loved one, your lost belongings etc?

Clearly, it’s the heart and not the mind which detains these good and bad memories. Now, having proved my point I wish to take you into the deep labyrinth of memories. We are there masters and there slaves. When they come unannounced they colour our judgements. You think they are imprisoned in your past but they have the power to ruin or build your present. A lonely night, a sleepless moment, an isolated corner or just some old song, book, letter or note can resuscitate some bygone memories. They gradually creep into our hearts, remind us of some unpleasant or pleasant experiences and make us forfeit reality for a while. That moment you travel back in time and relive the experience. It’s magical.

Memories have their own flavors. These flavors take away the blandness from our life. We ruminate over these memories, but, this alone is inconsequential. What is required is to make these memories a backstop for a prolific future. Our present is transient; it soon converts into a collection of memories. The cycle continues and so does life. Thus, strive to possess as many good memories as possible to experience more waves of ecstasy than stings!

It's time for a reality check!!

Inspired by someone today..I am again here to pen down my feelings, but this time in a different mood. Though there still are things that constantly nag my brain, I have learned to look past them and appreciate the positives around me. So, finally am settled well in MICA. Almost 5 months have flew past and have given me enough fodder to ruminate for probably the next one and a half year!

I met people, re-met them and then felt like never seeing their faces again, BUT, in the same place I also met people who have gradually become an integral part of my life in the past few months..yeah I can say that I feel "at home" in their presence. New relationships have beautifully integrated with the old one's, fading away some bitter experiences of the past. New faces, new cultures, new self-concepts have overhauled my whole perspective towards life. Am I again drifting towards philosophy, sorry, I can't help it..that's me!

It all started with adopting the 'night life', then co-existing with aliens, dealing with bloated egos, multi-tasking between pre-reads, tests, surprise quizzes, placement processes and events, parties, shifting rooms and now..fake profile..phew! There is so much to handle that there is no time to think about a particular event for long. What is left behind in the mind is an amalgamation of all these different feelings giving an overall sense of satisfaction. Satisfaction that I have faced it all.